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  • Asking a question is hard in live virtual events

    Asking a question is hard in live virtual events

    As the filmmaker-pilgrim behind The Unruly Mystic Series, I have always found the answers more instructive than the questions. Learning what to ask in the first place — that is the hardest part. Perhaps that instinct comes from my DNA as the son of an astronomer, Peter S. Conti (September 5, 1934 – June 21, 2021). The answers I received through many hours of interviews gave me insight into my own constantly developing spirituality — a luxury I don’t have in live virtual events, where there is no thoughtful editing to fall back on.

    Through the process of making these films and running live virtual events, I gained confidence in my own creative work and in the importance of making something of value for the world. For those who haven’t yet taken that plunge fully — there is someone out there right now looking for something that your future self will be creating.


    Going Live in Virtual Events

    Through the filmmaking process I have encountered many people whose knowledge and personal journeys would have enriched the films — but it is virtually impossible to include everyone in a 120-minute documentary. Each story is unique, each inspirational in its own way.

    Starting in 2020, during the pandemic, I began using a live virtual events format to share those conversations in real time — with breakout rooms that allow for the kind of exchange that can lead to genuine understanding and change. These are the conversations that films can point toward but never fully contain.

    The first experiment was a VMuir Day Panel in 2020, celebrating John Muir’s 182nd birthday on April 21, 2020, during the height of the Covid-19 pandemic. Panelists were asked about death, connecting with nature in isolation, and why John Muir remains relevant today.

    That September, over 150 virtual pilgrims attended the first live Saint Hildegard Pilgrimage — a virtual gathering for her Feast Day on September 17th. The response was extraordinary and confirmed that this format has a life of its own.


    Hildegard Presenter Requirements

    Presenters for the Saint Hildegard virtual events are invited based on the following criteria:

    • A personal connection to Saint Hildegard’s teachings, medicine, art, or music
    • Has done something meaningful around that creative connection — has taken the plunge
    • Is able to share their own process and experience in doing that work

    A Work in Progress

    I see each of us in Saint Hildegard, and Saint Hildegard in each of us. That is a work in progress — and an ongoing invitation.

    Join the conversation as we celebrate the spirituality and creativity of Saint Hildegard, as manifested through her natural medicine, art, writing, and music.


    Saint Hildegard Virtual Pilgrimage — September 2021

    Virtual Pilgrimage with Saint Hildegard — September 17 and 18, 2021, live and pre-recorded events
    Virtual Pilgrimage with Saint Hildegard — sainthildegard.com

    The September 2021 gathering offered a live virtual pilgrimage — both live and pre-recorded — spanning 12 days of recordings alongside two live event days over Saint Hildegard’s Feast Day, September 17 and 18, 2021.

    On September 17th at 1 PM EST, the Feast Day opened with the ringing of bells from Hildegard Haus in Fairport Harbor, Ohio, followed by a sermon from Rev. Dr. Shanon Sterringer. On Saturday, September 18th, Rev. Carol Vaccariello opened the day at 1 PM EST, followed by Rector Susan Springer offering a solemnity for St John’s Episcopal Church in Boulder, Colorado.

    Rev. Dr. Matthew Fox — author of Illuminations of Hildegard of Bingen, Hildegard’s Book of Divine Works with Letters and Songs, and Hildegard of Bingen, a Saint for Our Times: Unleashing Her Power in the 21st Century — shared reflections on spirituality and creativity with the gathered community.

  • Hildegard as Shaman?

    Hildegard as Shaman?

    Hildegard as Shaman: Matthew Fox writes in his Daily Meditations of 4/27/2021: “A shaman lives in two worlds at once. Poet Bill Everson speaks of the link shamans have with the Animal Powers and recognizes Christ’s relationship to such animal powers in Mark’s gospel following his baptism when he went into the desert.  Says Everson, “Christ related to the Animal Powers that preceded our more sophisticated religious impulses.””

    As a pilgrim-filmmaker, my own work with Saint Hildegard through the making of my film, The Unruly Mystic: Saint Hildegard, has made me also question if we could see Hildegard as Shaman through our modern-day lens. I realize that equating a Catholic Saint with shamanism is bound to rub some people the wrong way. I can thank Matthew Fox for the courage and insight to share that interesting perspective.

    “Hildegard too is much in touch with the Animal Powers. Time and time again she is visited by animals in her visions and paints them, including snakes that frame several of her paintings. She includes images of bears, leopards, lions, birds, vipers, scorpions, lobsters, and fish. Many of these beasts speak to her and advise her. She devotes an entire chapter in her book Physica to a discussion of animals and their uses for healing and assistance in our work. She recognizes that

    …birds symbolize the virtue a person reveals in his thinking when, by his internal premeditation, he reckons many things before they come forth in an illustrious deed.

    “Animals that run on land represent the “thoughts and meditations a person brings to completion in work,” as well as spiritual longing. Lions mirror the will of a person, while panthers show “ardent desire.” Tame animals that walk on land show “the gentleness of the human being.” In short, “animals have in them qualities similar to the nature of the human.””

    “A shaman is one who has undergone deep initiation and emerges to serve and heal the community. Hildegard was such a person. Estes defines an “initiated woman” this way:

    To be the keepers of the creative fire, and to have intimate knowing about the Life/Death/Life cycles of all nature—this is an initiated woman.”

    “Was there anyone who was busier keeping the creative fire alive than Hildegard?”

    hildegard as shaman
    Feather along the Hildegard Way, Germany 2019

    As one who has been creatively inspired by Hildegard as a filmmaker, I would answer with a resounding “No”. While I am sure others were keeping the “creative fire alive” during those times, we luckily have Hildegard’s work still with us. I see her as the Patron Saint of Creativity. Yet to think of her as a shaman as Matthew Fox shares?

    I have two ways of looking at that perspective. Having walked in Hildegardland as a pilgrim-filmmaker, I can testify the experience there resonated with me on a deeply spiritual level, similar to other places that are thinly veiled or considered as sacred landscapes. Specifically, I share a those experiences in my second film, The Unruly Mystic: John Muir.

    While those experiences might be profound for me personally, it doesn’t necessarily mean it is because someone blessed once was there. How Hildegard perceived her environment during her time, both internally and externally in her work, connects the past with the present. That is clearly evidence of someone that has a deep connection to spirit and the land.

    Finally, shamanism is also much like mysticism. Both are subject to cultural definitions as seen through our modern lens. I would invite us to think of the contributions and attributes that Fox has associated her with from his own unique perspective. There is much value in that observation.

    This particular thread that Matthew Fox started continues on his website. You can also find out more about Hildegard through his book below.

    Matthew Fox writes in Hildegard of Bingen about this amazing woman and what we can learn from her.

    In an era when women were marginalized, Hildegard was an outspoken, controversial figure. Yet so visionary was her insight that she was sought out by kings, popes, abbots, and bishops for advice.

  • Living saints today? Have you met any?

    Living saints today? Have you met any?

    Where have all the saints gone?

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    St. Francis Hiding in the Garden

    Living saints?  Have you met any?  Not a Hindu or Catholic Saint, placed on candle-lit altar or in rose garden.  But a living saint today.  Someone who projects a oneness with the world, is filled with loving compassion, who has a purpose of being in service to others?  A humble person who is truly awake?

    I have been asking these questions, not as a religious person, but as a filmmaker who has made several films on past saints, the visionaries who woke us up like Naturalist John Muir and Mystic Saint Hildegard of Bingen; my own patron saint of creativity, has lead me to the idea who wouldn’t appreciate more saints?

    What would they look like?  Where would you meet them?  At a volunteer or charity event?  A yoga studio?  A meditation retreat?  At the office?  I bet you haven’t met a lot, if any at all.  So where have all the saints gone?  We should have more.  We have a greater population now than when historical saints lived.  We are more educated.  We have the internet of all things amazing.  So, why don’t we have more saints?  Is organized religion turning them away?  Are we treating them with antipsychotics?  Are they self-medicating with recreational drugs?

    Obviously I am not alone if you google “Where have all the saints gone?”  The question generally gets turned to who are the living saints today?  With wonderful answers from people that have meet Mother Teresa or other Sainted modern religious figures that were only officially canonized after their deaths.

    Living Saints?

    I like this comment I found:  “There are many living saints amongst us right now that we do not know of, simply because it wasn’t part of God’s will for them to be revealed to us. So it’s always good to love your neighbor, not only because we are called to do so, but also because you never know when you are talking to a saint!”

    That is so true.

    When I set out to make my films, I didn’t know at the time, that I would also be exploring that question in a more timely perspective as my subject material was historical figures that had personally inspired me and others into our live’s purposes.   “Early Christian communities venerated hundreds of saints, but historical research by 17th- and 18th-century Catholic scholars determined that very few of these saints’ stories were backed by solid historical evidence. Lives of such well-known figures as St. George, St. Valentine, and St. Christopher were based either on a legend that often predated Christianity or were entirely made up. Other saints had local followings. In rural France, St. Guinefort was venerated as the protector of infants after he saved his master’s baby from a snakebite. Saint Guinefort was a dog!” (Appeared in the November 2013 issue of U.S. Catholic (Vol. 78, No. 11, page 46).

    If you want to learn more about saints, here is a list of recommended movies about saints that I have compiled. It is primarily Catholic Saints, but obviously that isn’t the only religion that has mystics and saints walking among them.